The Painful Emotions of our God given TrialsI have been going through a trial at my place of employment of late and no matter how much faith I have had that God was with me and that He was supporting me, I still went to work every day with knots in my guts. So I prayed about the fact that I was at peace in my mind and my heart that all would turn out well there but I was still emotionally distraught all while it was happening.
Then the Holy Spirit reminded me that Jesus had God's own powerful faith to go through His trial at the cross but He was still extremely emotionally upset anticipating it that He was ready to die while praying in the garden of Gethsemane as it approached Him! The Scriptures say that He despised the shame He was about to be put through and He looked forward to the joy He'd be given after accomplishing it. Yet He was still so emotionally distraught that blood came out of His forehead!
Well, things got better for me at work 3 days after that prayer but right after I experienced that improvement, I suddenly and unexpectedly felt better about things that were going on there. I believe that just as happened with Jesus in the garden after His heartfelt prayer, an angel came and touched me and strengthened me for the final days of my trial because the knots in my guts were gone!
The moral of or insight which may be found in this story is that we can have mountain moving faith with which to endure trials but we, like Jesus the human being, will still have to deal with the gut wrenching emotions of our trials. This is why James 1 tells us to "consider" it all joy when we are tried in God's crucible. We don't and we can't have a knee jerk reaction to our trials of a joyful feeling because we are emotional beings. So we have to mentally "consider" the trial and then "reckon" or "count" it up in our minds as being all joy but that does not mean that we will "feel" that it is all joy, no matter how strong our faith may be.
No one's faith could be stronger than Jesus faith that things would get better for Him but He still had to struggle with His painful, gut wrenching emotions in the garden of Gethsemane and all through His terrible crucifixion ordeal. So our emotional struggles in our God given trials are a place of fellowship with the person of and the emotional struggles of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.
Philippians 8:8 - 10 - .... I count all things to be loss in view of the surpassing value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord....that I may....know Him and the power of His resurrection and the fellowship of His (emotional) sufferings....