Modern day apostleship is a very controversial subject within today's Christianity. The vast majority of professing Christians believe that there are no apostles being sent by Jesus on missions today but many others dispute that opinion. I am one of the Christians who dispute it and I feel led by God to here give you the reasons that I have for so doing.

Romans 15:18 - For I will not presume to speak of anything except what Christ has accomplished through me....

Here I am testifying about
what I believe to have been Jesus Christ's supernatural workings to inform me of my apostolic appointment and then to guide me in it for over 35+ years! So here I have substantiated everything that I have written about my apostlic mission with what I believe are rightly divided Biblical verses and teachings. And here I have also given some very unique testimonies about the Lord's powerful substantiating movements within my life and also within the lives of other Christians with whom He has led me to fellowship.

I ask you the reader to approach these teachings and testimonies with an open mind and a humble and prayerful spirit, desiring only to find God's truth, not mine, about modern day apostleship.

Isaiah 1: 18 "Come now, let us reason together," says the Lord....

So please set aside all of your preconceived notions on this subject and permit God to speak to you in a way that you can understand and believe, as to whether or not this spiritual church office gift is for Christians today (as I am here contending that it is).

Every one of my teachings which are within this blog are open to being corrected and / or improved upon thru thoughtful responses from you, the readers whom God has sent here. You may post your constructive criticisms and / or suggestions in a comment at the bottom of each teaching's entry or you may e-mail them privately to me at -

Periodically, I will revisit every teaching within this blog in order to add more pertinent testimonies and / or more substantiating Scriptures to it and also to make corrections and / or improve it. That's when I will update each of them with any truths that I find God giving me from within your comments about them.

James 3:17 - The wisdom from above is first pure...

My prayer is that everything written on this blog is now (or will ultimately become thru editing), completely true to God and His word so that through it everyone that reads its entries may gain wisdom that it is Scripturally pure.

If this is your first visit here, please start with the first two Archive entries in March 2008 below because these are foundational teachings regarding modern day apostleship. Please also read the 3rd entry for substantiating testimonial evidence of my own apostolic ministry.

All entries beyond these first 3 contain various teachings and testimonies which I feel that God has moved me (in my apostolic role) to bring forth to edify you, my readers. The sum total of all of these entries are the ongoing annals of this anonymous modern day apostle who humbly strives to serve our glorious Lord Jesus Christ because...

Isaiah 61:10 - I delight greatly in the Lord...

Thank you.

Sunday, April 27, 2014

The Painful Emotions of our God given Trials

I have been going through a trial at my place of employment of late and no matter how much faith I have had that God was with me and that He was supporting me, I still went to work every day with knots in my guts. So I prayed about the fact that I was at peace in my mind and my heart that all would turn out well there but I was still emotionally distraught all while it was happening.

Then the Holy Spirit reminded me that Jesus had God's own powerful faith to go through His trial at the cross but He was still extremely emotionally upset anticipating it that He was ready to die while praying in the garden of Gethsemane as it approached Him! The Scriptures say that He despised the shame He was about to be put through and He looked forward to the joy He'd be given after accomplishing it. Yet He was still so emotionally distraught that blood came out of His forehead!

Well, things got better for me at work 3 days after that prayer but right after I experienced that improvement, I suddenly and unexpectedly felt better about things that were going on there. I believe that just as happened with Jesus in the garden after His heartfelt prayer, an angel came and touched me and strengthened me for the final days of my trial because the knots in my guts were gone!

The moral of or insight which may be found in this story is that we can have mountain moving faith with which to endure trials but we, like Jesus the human being, will still have to deal with the gut wrenching emotions of our trials. This is why James 1 tells us to "consider" it all joy when we are tried in God's crucible. We don't and we can't have a knee jerk reaction to our trials of a joyful feeling because we are emotional beings. So we have to mentally "consider" the trial and then "reckon" or "count" it up in our minds as being all joy but that does not mean that we will "feel" that it is all joy, no matter how strong our faith may be.

No one's faith could be stronger than Jesus faith that things would get better for Him but He still had to struggle with His painful, gut wrenching emotions in the garden of Gethsemane and all through His terrible crucifixion ordeal. So our emotional struggles in our God given trials are a place of fellowship with the person of and the emotional struggles of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.

Philippians 8:8 - 10 - .... I count all things to be loss in view of the surpassing value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord....that I may....know Him and the power of His resurrection and the fellowship of His (emotional) sufferings....

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The method of instruction utilized here.

Here, you will learn the wonderful truths regarding each entry's subject with which I feel that God has rewarded me over the years.

Hebrews 11:6b - ...He rewards those who DILIGENTLY seek Him!

I believe that the truths found within each of these Biblical teachings have been given to me by God as gifts for seeking Him with all of my heart.

Jeremiah 29:13 - You will seek Me and you will find Me when you seek Me with all of your heart.

I also believe that these truths have been accompanied by all of the supernatural substantiations from Him to which I here testify. These teachings and testimonies will not be found anywhere else that I know of.

Psalm 119:9
9 - I have better understandings and deeper insights than all of my teachers because Your testimonies are my meditation.

However, whenever I am led by God to encounter a really good Internet teaching which has been authored by another(that fits within the context of one of my own teachings), I will inform you of it and I will provide you with a link to it. It is not important to me if any of the information here that God wants to be shared with you is authored by me or by someone else. What is important to me is that you be given true teachings of God and His Word, no matter whom He uses to bring them forth.

All of these doctrinal studies are being compiled here just as I believe that God says in His Word that they are to be compiled.

Isaiah 28:9 - 10a - whom shall He teach knowledge? And whom shall He make to understand doctrine?

For precept must be upon precept, precept upon precept...

I believe that God's Word in context is the first thing that is to be presented about each subject that is discussed. Next, I believe that freedom of the Word is also to be employed in any doctrinal study.

Isaiah 29:10b - ...line upon line, line upon line; here a little, and there a little

This is where the Holy Spirit moves to give us inspiration from various Scriptures and/or their principles
from all over the Bible (and in many different translations) regarding each subject. Here a little, there a little Scriptural precept plucking is a precedent set by the Holy Spirit in the Word where He often inspired the men who wrote the New Testament to so pull and quote Scriptures from the Old Testament.

These holy men were moved to utilize all or parts of
many Old Testament passages and verses (some completely out of context and/or seemingly totally unrelated) in their pastoral letters to Scripturally substantiate the things that they taught. They also did this frequently within the 4 gospel accounts of the life, death and resurrection of Jesus Christ and within the book of Acts. The original apostles truly had freedom in the Word!

Whenever I have actually
experienced for myself manifestations of the truth of any of these doctrines, my personal testimonies of those happenings are employed by me here to illustrate and / or to further substantiate them. When others have experienced them and told me about their experiences, I utilize their testimonies. Either way, these testimonies all contribute immensely to the truth and hopefully they will contribute to the acceptance of each teaching.